Light Headed

Don't know why but i have been feeling light headed today that for a few sec, my view was getting hazy/blackish like that. In the morning i was doing fine but it will started after i had my dinner. Had to lie down and i almost dozed off, hehe. Lukily the light headed feeling passes by but now i am having it again.

I have started or trying to eat some healthier food. Bought some wholemeal bread to munch on in the morning. I even bought cereals :)

The weather has been a bit more nicer lately, due to the fact that it has been raining. It's not always that we would be getting the rain, but it's better than the constant hot weather we been having. I just love rainy days!

Hopefully with me sleeping tonight, my giddiness would subside in the morning.

Goodbye

Onyen has passed away today :(
I thought i couldn't cry because i was not close to him but when Ati told me he has passed away, tears just starts falling down from my eyes. Sigh

At least he won't be suffering anymore now.

You will be missed Onyen. Memories of you will be with us for a long, long time.


Onyen, when he was still looking healthy

After....Yesterday "Storm"

Went out from the house at 745am, the night before i decided to go for my blood test first. Why waste another day right when i can do the 2 appt on the same day. Arrived at the Heart Centre by 845am, so far so good. Asked the counter clerk if i need to passed them the stool test at the same place as well and she said yes. I was SOOO thankful that i was quick about this next incident. The clerk was asking me stuffs and saying ok, the payment for the tests would be $203!

WAIT A MINUTE, DID I HEARD THAT RIGHT?? $203!!!

I double confirmed with her saying that if the payment was being made under "B2" and she proceed to checked again and asked if i have the white appt card or the blue appt card (the blue card is for private patient, white card is for B2 and below). I explained to her that i had been downgraded from last week and she said, ok, thank you for pointing it out to her and she made the right amendment and the payment came out as $98 instead.

WHAT A DIFFERENCE RIGHT! FOR ONCE I WAS QUICK THINKING, HAHA, I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF! ^_^

Took the blood test and this time around they can only get 1 full yellow tube from me. It was supposed to be 3 tubes of blood. I told the technician {that's what they are called), that i am anemic and the other lady said that it's ok, they can make do with whatever that they had gotten from me. For once my arm was feeling kind of numb, it has never happened to me before whenever i took the blood test.

Next stop is the Gynae appt, which is at Block 5. I have like 30mins to spare. Nice, nice. The appt is at 940am. I don't have to rush or anything. Got to the place by 930am, thanks to clear directions which SGH have put up and to my glasses as well, or i will be blind instead.

Did the registration and now to wait. And boy was it a long wait. I got to see the dr by 1020am. Ok lah that's not REALLY a long wait, i get to seat while i was waiting and i was watching the tv as well. SGH is really generous with the tv, it's everywhere! I was pleasantly surprised by the dr, yes he is a male dr but he came across as someone who is friendly and approachable. Starts asking me questions, i have to tell everything, no secrets to keep cause they need to know almost about everything. When was my last period and "others".

I even did a PAP SMEAR TEST. How about that, my FIRST EVER!

I have to say....the experience was quite interesting, in a weird kind of way. Next he checked my womb and said that it's ok. Hmm how do you defined 'OK'. I was so nervous when i was doing the Pap Smear test that my legs was shaking xD. They would post to me the results in 2 weeks time.

I asked the dr again with the chances of me having a kid in the future and he said, since my heart is not strong and i'm having a leaked valve in the heart and IF i were to go to labour, i might have a HEART FAILURE, when they do the anaethestic on me. He advised me that if i ever plan to get pregnant, i need to see them again so that they can monitor my progress closely. That's the only thing that i need to worry about, other than that, he don't see as to why i can't have any children.

Right now, the dr want to find out as to why i am anemic, he give me a medication. When i am having my period i am supposed to take that, it's to make my blood flow lesser. I doubt that would help much. They keep asking me if i eat meat, and i said yes. So i don't know also la...so complex. The medicine doesn't look cute, so i won't be posting the picture, LOL.

That's quite a relieve when i heard it, i just have to be careful with my decisions. The other options is always getting an Op. But yeah it doesn't look as bleak as before. Alhamdulillah!

When i think about my visits to the doctors and the tests that i have to do i can consider myself lucky, i have come across ppl that have been really nice and patience with me. As it is going alone for these kind of things can be so stressful for someone such as myself, so when the day passes by with no drama at all, i call it a really good day for me :)

Sorry if my explanation was long winded, hehe.

O & G

I feel so lost and alone at the moment.

Tomorrow is my Gynae appt. I really do not know what to expect from the appt, more tests for me? I am really really worried now. Only Allah knows how scared i am feeling. Hopefully things won't be as bad as how i am imagining them to be.

I will be going alone. I guess i am used to it by now but at times i wish i did have some kind of moral support, someone accompanying me for these kind of things. To make it worse i have been crying even before i starts doing this blog, how silly i am.

As for my blood test i might be doing it on friday instead. I just want to get the Gynae appt out of the way first.

Onyen

My cat Onyen has not been feeling well lately, he has grown so skinny now, hardly eating anything, just drinking a bit and making weird noises, which i have never heard him do it before.

Mimi and me brought him to the vet nearby at Serangoon on Monday. The doctor said, probably it has to do with his kidneys. Onyen is about 14 years old now. The doctor made Onyen pee to checked on his urine. It's a bit grainy but he is not at a dangerous state yet. I wish i had remembered to asked the doctor if he could have given Onyen some kind of injections. Ipah tried to give him the medications but it's so hard. All we can do now is hope that he will recover soon or just wait for it to happen.

On A Happier Note

aya playing masak-masak (play acting)



aya and her coconut drink




shirin looking more cuter and cuter everyday with mum looking on

Books & Other Things

Patricia Briggs [Bone Crossed] & Sophie Kinsella [Confessions of a Shopaholic]

I went to Sunny Bookstore on Thursday, after i had fixed my 3 other appt, more blood test and stool test and 2 other dr appt. I got these two books, one is from Patricia Briggs that i have ordered from them and the other is the one that is being made into a movie. The book says that it is hilarious to read, but i was so irritated with the character instead on the first half of the book. Maybe it's just me, haha.

Alhamdulliah the medicine is working out for me, so far i would only be feeling giddy and headache in the evening time. It's not so bad and i can still tolerate the pain.

Thank you so much Ani, i am really grateful that i am in your prayers. Thank you again :)

Sigh..

Today was my follow up appt with the doctor and the results of my 3 tests. For my blood test they found that i am anemic, which means i have low blood level in my body. My other 2 tests, they found that the left side of the heart valve is loose, that's one of the reason as to why i am having irregular heartbeat. It doesn't look good at all, as the left side of the valve is suppose to release blood to my body but instead i am getting fluid in my heart as well. It seems that my heart is bigger than normal because of that as well.

The next options they are telling me is to have an operation to have the valve replace or to fix it. I might not even have any kids in the future, that is what is killing me most at the moment. I have talked to Ipah and my other half about it. I feel like i am less of a woman if i can't give birth to a baby :(

I need to go for more tests, 1 is to the O&G and the other is for the SGH dr, i guess he or she can tell us more in details as to what i would need to expect if i would choose to go for an operation. It is a very scary thought and they might be some complications even after the operation is done. But what choice do i have....

They even downgrading me for my future medical bills. I would be seeing the Medical Social Worker tomorrow about it, by the looks of it i am sure i can be downgraded.

As of now i would need to take 1 medicine, for 3 months. If i were to feel giddy/rashes or just feel so sick after taking the medicine, i am advice to stop taking them.


doesn't the medicine looks cute, it even shape into a heart, hehe

Last One

So today was the last test that was done for me. I went to have my Holter removed, the itchiness was unbearable. Did the Stress Echo Exercise, first they checked on my heartbeats and and an ultrasound as well, from the way they were talking to each other, it doesn't sound good, but it was in chinese, so i have no way to know what was being said.

I guess one of the technician or a doctor told me that it doesn't look too good, cause my doctor had a check on my Holter results and she had my appt moved to the 11/2, 1 week earlier. This lady told me cause they were worried of the sound of my heartbeats. So they asked me to walked on the treadmill with wiring on me and on my arm. It was nerve wrecking! As i expected after doing that for 3 min i got so exhausted and i was breathing so hard, they told me if i were to feel really breathless, i was to inform them and they would stop the test. They told me to lie down again and they start checking my heart. I was supposed to walk and then run, but with how i was, they didn't make me run.

I almost cried at that moment cause i was feeling so stupid and it hit me how unfit i was! Yes i know i was gaining weight and all but i should have taken better care of myself. I am so worried as well, trying not to think of a negative outcome. Stay strong Sulas!

2 Down 1 To Go!

Okay so i asked about the Medisave thing, and the staff told me that i can't use it since i was not admitted :(. I am really, really surprised, so far my experience with NHC has been pretty good, the staffs/doctors and even the security man is nice and helpful.I would give them 4/5 stars! Hehe.

I went for my blood taking first, the interesting part about the place is that half of the area is for the pharmacy and the other end half if for the blood testing. I don't know why but i was really talking and being friendly to almost everyone i met. I just feel happy to be there. Weird right. I had to pay like $113 for the blood test, like whoa it's so expensive and only today i have just realise that i am not under a subsidy rate but as a "A" class rate, as my referral was from a GP and not from the Polylinic, i am so so sad :( but it can't be helped now. My brain has been functioning really slow lately, haha.

Next i went for my Holter appt, i get to change my Stress Echo appt, that way i don't have to wait till next month. Guess when is the appt? Tomorrow! I have been going to the same place like everyday, in that sense. Make me feel like i am working there! I am using the Holter now, feels weird, and itchy. I can't shower for tomorrow appt, alamak looks like i have to "kopet" for 1 day. I will be removing the Holter as well earlier for tomorrow, before my next appt.

Medisave?

After having such an overwhelming day, i totally forgot to asked NHC if i could use Medisave instead to pay for the 2 test that i would be doing. I was thinking of it when i was there, me and my bad memory at times. Okay definately i need to ask them if i can use my Medisave, that would helps me A LOT!

Sorry lah i just have to add this entry, i am like thinking so much right now. I am so tired and sleepy but for some odd reason i couldn't make myself relax and to have a nap when i got back today...

I am also seriously thinking if i should just go early and try my luck in doing the blood testing first. What to do, what to do..

I hope everything goes well for tomorrow. Insya allah.

Test and more Test

The appointment to NHC was not as bad as i expected. I even found a shuttle bus service to bring the staffs and visitor's/patient's, around from one building to the other, what a lifesaver la. And plus it's FREE!!

The staffs are friendly and it's doesn't look as crazy as TTSH, the waiting time was not long either, i am really impressed. The lady doctor told me that i have nothing to worry about but she wants me to do some test's, just to be on the safe side. For tomorrow i have to go to NHC again to do a 24 Hour Holter Monitoring, it will be weird to have the leads sticking on me, hopefully when i get home, the leads won't fall off! It's not cheap the test, for that alone it cost $203! No joke right. I need to do some blood test as well, the staff was nice enough to explained to me that i can't do the blood test in the morning as there would be a lot of people, and anyway i need to do the Holter first before doing the blood test. Sigh..

The 2nd test is called Stess Echo Exercise, whereby i have to walk on a treadmill and they will be monitoring my heart rate. I hope it's not too tiring la. This one is more shocking, the test cost $513!. When i saw the test slips and the costs for them, i almost had a heart attack! I told my sis, Ipah and she was even shocked about it. Ipah is kind enough to helped me with the expenses. Dunno why i feel like crying a lot these past few days. Thank you Ipah!

I need to change the follow up appointment with the cardio doctor, when i saw what was written on the card, she clearly says, she want me to see her, 2 weeks after i am done with the test's and now the counter staff give me the date which is on the 18/2, but i have to do my 2nd test on the 10/3. If i were to ignore it, i would need to pay more to see the doctor and plus i would be wasting not just my time but the doctor as well. Tomorrow i would ask the counter staff to make the amendment for me.

Nervous!

I am really nervous about my appointment to the National Heart Centre tomorrow. I just hope that they don't make me do too many test, i wonder if i need to do an x-ray or not, sigh. At first i thought i would asked my uncle who drives a cab to send me to the place cause this would be the first to be going there, but then again i decided not to, i don't want to trouble him, instead i would be taking the train from Hougang and all the way to Outram and figure out my way from there. Outram Mrt is kinda confusing but i have printed out the map for NHC and i sort of knows where i need to walk about, once i am out from the train station. Oh i love my printer so much! Hehe.

I am also worried if i were to go there, the doctor could not find anything wrong with me. I did went for a cardio appt, long, long time ago, and from the looked of the doctor face, it's like he was telling me, "Why are you wasting my time seeing you". Even though i had worked in a hospital for almost 10 years, just thinking of that experienced, it puts me off from seeing other doctors, except for me own GP. Lucky thing my GP is a nice guy and i can talk easily with him if i were to have any problems.

Can't avoid that the appointment would be at 10am, eww, the train would be so jammed packed in the morning, i will try not to think to much of that for now....

On a lighter note, my bro, seeing how Ati, our helper, i don't know what kind of mood he is having, he went out, pass me some cash for my appointment (cause i asked from him, yeah, he is pretty nice at times, but can be so sakit hati with him on other days), and he got for Ati a Digital Dictonary.I think that is what it is called la. He said he has always noticed that Ati reading the cooking books in malay, what better way for her to learn english, with it and it can help her to translate things at the same time.

As i am doing my blog now, Ati is at the kitchen fiddling with the dictonary :)

She was ironing the clothes, my bro came home and was showing her the thing, he didn't realised how fragile the ironing board was, and as he was putting his hand on the ironing board and was basically putting half of his weight on it, the ironing board, broke into 2! Right at the centre of the ironing board. He was like, "Wah i didn't know i was THAT heavy". Well duh :P. No comment in that la. So he had to go out again to get a new ironing board for Ati to finished up with the rest of the clothing.

Somehow i always feels like how i phrase my words are weird or just plain funny.

Hello again!

Yes i have decided to do my blog again, after i had gotten so lazy to update anything new, as you can see i have deleted all of my old posts and since it's the new year i am starting new as well, i hope its for the better.

Hopefully this time around i will be more motivated to do updates on my blog! We will see how long it last right :)